As I mentioned before, I got a little bored with AFF. Well, maybe more than a little. And, I took a break, only to have the emails just pile up on me, which stresses me out. I like to be in control of my in-box!
I was supposed to get together with Cutie on Thursday and go out with the Doctor on Saturday. I got my period a week early and since these were fucking dates, I cancelled. I only told the Cutie why because he was pouty as it was a last minute cancel.
For those who read my blog, you have probably noticed that I’ve become quite fond of my FWB. So much so, that I’m taking a bit of a step back from that situation. I don’t know if it’s truly feelings or just me being lonely because it’s dark and gray and this is my first holiday alone in many, many years. And, he’s considering a move across the country. I need to focus on other things right now, and falling for my FWB is not one of the things I want to deal with.
I know I’m still not ready to date. I don’t think I will be for a very long time. And, I am happy right now, even though I struggle with the weather and the dark. But, really, who doesn’t struggle with SAD in Oregon (or Washington, or any of the other dark, dreary states)? It’s a lot like PMS . . . when I get sad, angry, hungry, irritable, emotional, etc., during that time, I need to let it pass before I do anything major, because chances are, it’s all in my head.
So, I’m going to see Cutie, I’m sure, this upcoming week. My FWB is going to visit family for quite a while, so that makes things easier there. I have a date with the Doctor on Friday (third time is a charm, right?). And, I’m not sure what else I have going on. The married guy with the hall pass and I talk a lot. I really like him for some reason. But I’m not sure if I like him like that or if I want to go there.